#i mentioned that they're in love but it's in a sick twisted toxic way so buckle up

[best-enemies]

started watching hannibal, when does it become gay

Anon I'd say from the very moment when Will and Hannibal met each other in episode 1. Hanni was smitten from day one and you can tell. If that doesn't convince you, I'd say the next episodes will gradually change your mind. But it gets heavily gay during season 2, so as to not leave any doubts. Although the show is very subtle about these things and characters speak in metaphors and it's like they're living in an opera, it never fails to show that it is indeed a very, very gay show and Hannibal and Will are very much in love with each other.

[muslimintp-1999-girl]

Do you think we have any hope for Jelly being endgame for season 3? I'm guessing it's the final season if it's I need them to be endgame they're the main relationship of the series to me If it's not endgame why would I invest my time on season 3? Even if the cheating plot doesn't happen that still won't make the season good. You expect me to see Belly end up with this toxic jerk again and have Jere hurt again? Imagine watching the love of your life getting married to your brother ugh that would be the worst ending for Jeremiah Conrad doesn't really have anything with Belly all he does is same some corny ass line and it never lands the jelly relationship is more developed imo Conrad never wants her unless she' interested in someone else it's annoying didn't like him in the books don't in the show team Jelly forever.

I have no plans of watching s3 personally. And I'll wait for the season to finish before checking out who they ended up making the endgame. And apparently (due to the strikes I guess?) s3 will be out like after 2 years. Anyways as much as I hope Jenny has realised how bad of a look bonrad endgame is, Conrad is still hella romanticised and I don't trust her for delivering jelly endgame.

Exactly my point, there's no reason for making Belly end up with a toxic guy and romanticising it.

I feel that in a way, Jere did the right thing walking away knowing he'll never be appreciated but ugh does it break my heart to know that he's never appreciated enough 💔

Exactly, jelly has EVERY single thing under the sun going on for them, like every cute trope, best lines. Best friends to lovers, angst, mutual pining, telepathy, deep conversations, attraction, care, love, not to mention the chemistry & acting of Gavin and Lola. And like Jere has boundaries but still lets her bejeweled. Like how am I supposed to resist this ship!?! Jenny really did give them the best of everything (and then took it away and made them tragic lol)

While all bonrad has is infinity necklace (and Taylor songs in the bg in the show) lol

THIS!!! EVEN S1 Belly realised and acknowledged and admitted this that Conrad doesn't like her but likes that she is into him and chasing him. Plus every meaningful conversation esp to be clear on where they stand was initiated by Belly. Imo if tsitp was a one season show, it would make so much sense and provide a great plot twist and ending to make jelly the endgame and have it ended there. Like season 1 was amazing, it had Belly call out Conrad's bs and we finally had jelly only for the last scene to fuck it up.

I HATE HATE HATE that they erased all character development of Belly for a weak and toxic male character & romanticised a man who breadcrumbs her, is never emotionally available, hurts her and dare I say only sees her as a competition (coz I'm sick of twitter bonrad stans accusing Jere of this competition bs when if it's any brother who does this, it's clearly Conrad. Like all their accusations on Jere are literally a bunch of projections).

[stellae-de-baphometis]

Can We Stop Fetishising Daemons Please?

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of s3xual ass4ult, r4pe and s3xual content in general. ⚠️

Alrighty so this is gonna be a bit of a ranty post.

So I've been talking with a friend about this weird-ass trend going around lately where people are claiming to have sexual experiences with daemons. Now, having a sexual and/or romantic relationship with a daemon can actually be a really lovely experience, and it's not a problem in and of itself.

Triggering content incoming, will be under the cut. ⬇

The problem begins when people start treating daemons like sex objects and claim to either r4pe or be r4ped by daemons, s3xually ass4ult them, and reduce them to some sort of toy for them to fuck around with and exploit for their own benefit.

I'm just gonna say this right now... I don't personally believe these people are actually engaging in these experiences with daemons and infernal deities. You're most likely being leeched off of by an imposter spirit, and that shit is SERIOUSLY GONNA BACKFIRE one day.

It's people like this that really ruin sexual and/or romantic relationships with deities for everybody, and it gives the concept in general a really bad name. Whatever personal relationship you have with a daemon or deity is valid, as long as it's consensual and there is mutual respect between both parties. If you're going out of your way to disrespect a daemon or deity, they're really not gonna be happy about that shit. Especially if it's a daemon. You will seriously piss them off and they won't hesitate to kick you up the ass and teach you a lesson.

I've personally had a few sexual encounters with King Pazuzu that have been mutually consensual, and they've actually been very nice, albeit intense, experiences. I didn't exploit him and he didn't exploit me. In fact, him being a healer and protector spirit, he actually helped remove a lot of negative energies from me and boosted my self-esteem and self-confidence through the use of sex magic. He even cut toxic people out of my life and gave me the strength to stand up to them when they started giving me shit. I felt very rejuvenated and happy after my sexual experiences with him.

You can have sexual experiences and/or relationships with daemons that don't involve degrading them or reducing them to a sex object. There is absolutely no need to disrespect them like that and it is seriously not okay. Please for the love of the gods in the infernal heavens, be respectful to daemons and deities in general! You are not above them and if you try to act like you are, you're gonna piss them off and you're gonna get your ass kicked.

Oh and don't even get me started on the fact that Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel are partially to blame for all this shit. It really irks me the amount of immature horn-dogs that are now invading Daemonolatry as a practise because they saw Viv's interpretation of them and try to convince themselves the daemons are actually like that, just so they can fulfil their sick twisted perverted fantasies. But that's for another whole ass post.

Sigh, anyways sorry for the angry rant. This shit has been bothering me for a while now and I wanted to get it off my chest. As always, please have respect for the daemons and deities you work with...

Don't treat them like sex toys.

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Ave Satanas

-Kody 🕸

[barbatos-sama]

i don't think i've even told you part of the big conflict in bloodwood other than th two factions split between who wants to win the game and who doesn't, but basically wyatt and hans are kind of the faces of their respective factions (fun because they happen to be life and death, opposites) and they have so much personal drama going on outside of this but it bleeds into the main conflict so much lol. basically hans was raising wyatt for quite a while after wyatt first arrived there and wyatt got attached to hans; as the first parent figure in his life who treated him normal. wyatt was extremely abused so it was super life changing to have a parental figure who loved him and let him eat as much as he wanted and encouraged his gnc behavior. i decided that despite saying hayden and wyatt have always aged normally that's not really true, actually for a while they remained kids longer than they normally would have, so wyatt spent maybe fourish years being the same age while hans parented him and hayden unconsciously followed suit since your mental mindset can affect your aging there. hayden was never as close to hans as wyatt was because hayden viewed him as this guy trying to replace his own parents, even though his parents weren't perfect he still loved them so he didn't like this rando ass guy trying to play mommy and daddy with him yknow. but he understood why wyatt needed hans, it's just sometimes hayden could see the red flags where wyatt couldn't.

the thing about hans is that while at heart he's a good person, he can be toxic in ways he doesn't realize. i think ive mentioned before that he thinks he knows whats best for other people thus he tries to control them, its out of caring for them but it leaves people feeling like he doesn't want them to have agency. hans is very stubborn and set in his ways, and he's prone to superstition (as someone who's very religious) and he tends to view people (especially children) disobeying him as them straying from gods guidance or whatever the fuck. the reason he remains close to seraphine for so long is because they're both very similar but also after nepha died seraphine became sick and weak, and with hans as her caretaker she doesn't really have Room to disagree with him.

it doesn't help that a twist in the story is that during the reign of a previous death piece, nepha had possessed them (death) into doing a whole thing where they rendered lottie unconscious to use her trust piece powers to influence certain other pieces. that's why you don't tend to see me talking about lottie a lot, she's out of commission for a good chunk of the story. she's locked up tight in a stronghold and nobody can get in, and everyone was led to believe it was of her own volition; the trust piece losing her trust in everyone else and retreating to solitude. lottie's powers were affecting both hans and seraphine, strengthening their beliefs to the point of delusion in favor of nepha, which is why they refused to believe wyatt about nepha being evil no matter what he did to the point of it being kind of ridiculous.

so hans' beliefs are very unshakable and he tends to finds excuses for every little thing to validate them. this is why when hans first finds out that wyatt is the death piece (it took a minute since multiple pieces had recently died so they didn't quite know who was who during that period) it changed how hans viewed wyatt quite a bit. at this point it was basically prophecy that every death piece up until that point had killed at least one person (a lot of this had to do with nepha possessing them to do so, but hans doesn't know this obviously) so he begins to believe wyatt is dangerous and is concerned about it. he's basically waiting for wyatt to become this problem child despite wyatt being nothing but obedient and perfect until this point, wanting to be the perfect child to his new parent. it was around this time that nepha tried to possess wyatt but wyatt severed their connection damning her to the afterlife, so of course wyatt tried to tell hans about this and hans wouldn't believe it at all, both due to his inherent bias towards nepha being so perfect during her life, plus the artificial bias created by lottie's powers. this was hans' sign that wyatt was actually becoming the problem he envisioned him being.

sensing the change in hans' behavior towards him, wyatt begins to become more lax about the way he acts, trying less to impress hans and acting more like himself. wyatt was naturally a very timid and quiet child but as he settled into a """normal""" life free of abuse he started trying less hard to be perfect, starting to disobey hans (the piercings for example). he and hayden start going out into the wilds without permission, which to be fair to hans is super dangerous and stupid of them to do, and hans gets more and more paranoid about this problem child who's getting out of control or whatever.

it's around this time that kimberly's brother (GUESS WHO FORGOT HIS NAME AGAINNNNN LMAOOOOO) arrives in the game and he is hans' new golden child. the thing about hans is that he wants to be a parent so bad but is just so bad at it. every kid he's raised over the years has turned their backs on him (and then died for unrelated reasons) so whenever a new teen comes around he latches onto them and tries to be their new mom. the thing is this guy is Really good at being a golden child, and being the justice piece really boosts his resume. as you know wyatt and this guy don't get along at all and end up fighting, and this boy is Actually dangerous and ends up genuinely trying to kill wyatt. wyatt defends himself and ends up using doom for the first time, burning the kid on his face. this is Super it for hans, his suspicions are confirmed that wyatt is dangerous and scary. he doesn't believe wyatt that it was self defense. this leads wyatt to essentially snap, the innocence of a kid who got away from his abuser and had a happy wholesome few years was gone. he came to the conclusion that adults just could not be trusted and that nobody would accept him for who he is. he and hayden ran away into the wilds and when hans tried following them wyatt had a huge burst of power to open up a chasm in the floor which filled with doom, creating a huge river of doom. it officially symbolized the rift between two factions. it was wyatt's first huge burst like this, something that comes from strong emotion that he can't usually do.

wyatt and hayden survived by themselves out in the wild for a while, this is when they started aging again normally. it was hard because there's demons all over and they couldn't even control their powers yet. it's around this time that the previous time and love pieces (who i haven't named yet) are on their own mission to kill the identity piece, one of bubs' precious "incarnations." it's during this time that bubs is almost animalistic in behavior, drenched in rage and constantly uncontrollably shapeshifting into vile looking creatures. the time and love pieces hunt her like an animal, knowing that they can never achieve the unity needed to win the game if identity can't coexist with them. they've used technology left over by a previous fear piece that bubs had killed just before hayden replaced them. they were cuffs that would cancel out bubs super strength, if they could just lock them on her she would be powerless to fight back and they could finally kill her. they didn't view her as human at this point, more like just another demon to kill. they managed to cut off one of bubs' fingers which forced her back into a humanoid form and stunned her, and they managed to force the cuffs on. she was flailing and fighting and as they were ready to kill her, suddenly doom manifested on the chains of the cuffs which dissolved them allowing bubs to fight back. she killed them both then. (these two would be replaced by xun and kimberly some time after.)

understanding that the death piece had killed her, she knew she had principles hardwired in her that she couldn't shake no matter how many incarnations she'd been through: if you help her she helps you. death had just saved her life so she owed him a debt. wyatt knew this, he'd been reading entries kept by a previous memory piece he'd found in the old city created by first fear. there's a lot of old settlements and structures made by old pieces in the wilds, their area of settlement had really shrunk over the years as more of the powerful ones died off. anyway, wyatt, still only 15 at this point, trembling with fear but jaded by his experiences, told bubs that he knew she made deals and that he needed to make a deal with her. she owed him her life so she would protect him and hayden.

bubs was not thrilled by this one bit, she was still an angry mess and now unable to shapeshift. but over time she allowed hayden to reverse engineer the cuffs. it took a Lot of coaxing and domesticating to get bubs to try on the cuffs of course, but once she finally put one on she found it was pretty nice not accidentally breaking anything she touched. she reluctantly helped hayden and wyatt restore first fear's city and she helped them learn how to use their powers and fight. along the way they met friendly demons who began helping the restoration and populated the village.

hans has a lot of regrets about wyatt and wants to see him sometimes, but never allows himself to truly acknowledge that he was wrong. it's not until lottie's influence is severed that hans begins to have his doubts, although his own natural biases still exist, and he retains his belief that he knows what's best for people and states that bubs was a bad influence on him. a lot of wyatt's personality comes from being raised by bubs, which is partially why he ended up kind of mean and standoffish, along side just being jaded from his experiences both in and outside of the game.

it's kind of a cruel twist of fate that wyatt does end up killing someone fulfilling the prophecy, once again in self defense it's the same guy. by this time lottie's influence has been severed but wyatt is just so angry about the whole thing. he snaps at hans screaming "you've been just waiting and waiting eager for me to kill someone to prove you right, well here it fucking is."

i honestly haven't decided whether or not these two actually ever repair their relationship but i'm thinking no. it's funny that they started out so wholesome while i've been churning this in my head for so many years but ive ruined them like this ajdjd also sorry this got so long i didn't think i would just dump a big story bit on you LMAO this is just part of the current canon i've been rechurning over the last year(?)ish.

[yoonia]

Hey Dia! I’d like to share more stuff I talked about in my last message (the seven deadly sins au) if it’s fine. Fair warning, I’m gonna send more than one ask related to this fic, so be on the lookout lol.

For Lust, I’ve been thinking about casting Taehyung. I do like Jimin being associated with the same sin but I thought of doing something different and just to make it less predictable (like with EANA). Also idk if I’m the only one but I feel like Tae and Jimin give different vibes when they’re depicted as the sin of lust, not that it’s bad of course. Idk how I can explain it though.

In this story, OC here feels lonely because everyone she knows is dating someone except her. The thing is though, she has a fear of commitment and intimacy (because trauma). So one night at a bar, OC meets Taehyung and sleeps with him that same night. And for a while, OC would regularly visit and spend time with him and the 2 of them would explore all kinds of kinks. But the problem is that their whole relationship revolves around sex and nothing else, (which is shallow and superficial obviously). But they both realize that eventually. For Taehyung, he realizes he’s never learned how to form genuine connections with ordinary humans (despite wandering the earth for several years). And for OC, she realizes she needs to love herself before loving others. She only wanted to “date” Taehyung because she felt left out and didn’t know (or see) her self worth. And she only likes the idea of being in love.

I came up with this storyline in particular because when I watched that one video I mentioned from my last message, it explains how lust stems from loneliness. And I just think that’s something a lot of people can relate to. I’m ngl, idk if it’s just me (or maybe I don’t have as wide as a variety with reading fics as I thought lol) but I haven’t really seen lot of fics out there with realistic portrayals of friends with benefits relationships (and the side effects). Ig I’m just curious what it would be like to write one that shows the more unhealthy sides of those kinds of relationships. Not that it’s bad to write fics the way you want to of course (I really hope it doesn’t sound like I’m shaming anybody’s writing btw)

I actually have a rough draft that’s in progress rn but nothing’s set it stone yet. I like what I’ve written so far though😊

I'm sorry I always so late getting back to you but OMG you need to write this 😭😭😭 for real. I love it!

(ps. I'm answering your asks separately so I can respond more coherently since my brain is running slow after I got sick lol)

I can totally see what you meant about Tae and Jimin having different vibes if you want to relate them with Lust. I think it's similar to how people always see Jimin as somewhat a Slytherin, as he seems to have this mischievous and darker side that can be completely unpredictable, which is why he seems to be the perfect candidate for Lust. But you know, seeing Taehyung's most recent..."endeavours" (the thirst traps he constantly threw at us ever since he started Instagram, his photoshoots, his most recent release), he does have this bad boy side of him that feels a bit more like a frat boy-ish vibe which, I can totally see as Lust.

You always have different twists with your ideas, so they're always awesome and I love reading through them.

Back to your idea, I think it's great to challenge yourself with writing in a darker theme. People are often afraid of delving into heavy topics like unhealthy relationships because they know that readers often dive into fiction work looking for happy endings as their form of escape, but there are others (like me, heh) who love reading these types of stories. Yes, writing toxic relationships, cheating, or types of relationships you mentioned above, often takes you a bit too close to reality as they happen in real life, but that's actually the beauty of writing, you know? Bringing real topics that we meet in life into a story so we can truly "feel" it. Sometimes, reading about pain can be cathartic and healing for some, which is why angst fics still have many readers.

What I love about your idea for this story is how it challenges your characters to grow as people and to test whether or not they can communicate with each other in the story. While your challenge would be about bringing all of this to life (which seems fun, tbh. I love challenges).

I say continue polishing your rough draft and let your your idea grow. The way you write in bullet points (the way you sent the ideas for EANA to me) was one of the ways I often do when I brainstorm ideas. You'll probably end up fixing some plotholes and filling up the scenes once you continue going with it.

(ps. 2. if you're still on my Patreon, you can use my writing practice sheets to organize your ideas. I have some more of these sheets coming soon so I hope they can help you with developing this idea--and others)

[the-acid-pear]

I'm abnormal so I want to make a full post reasoning why I picked all the songs ^_^

1. The Boat Song by Amanda Palmer & Jason Webley

I actually have a whole fucking post showing my insane visions regarding deltarune and this song but the tl;dr is that it has strong snowgrave vibes and it starts w "my baby doll" and also religious imagery, heavy.

2. Poor Isaac by The Airborne Toxic Event

Unfortunately there's no why to this one. It's residual. This wasn't meant to be a Spamton playlist but it evolved into one and this was left over. Kind of like we still have extra teeth, you know?

3. Trouble by Bellstop

Singer says the streets used to be theirs, just like Spammy in their big shot era. They also lost their friends and any place in this world. There's also talk about returning it which in a way reminds me of Spamton in snowgrave stealing the kingdom ^_^

4. Biggering by The 88

C'mon. You never watched The Lorax?

Seriously though: it's a song about greed going from being okay with as little as he had (addispam) to needing more (big shot) and more and more (neo). There's also this sick animatic w it ! !

5. No Te Invité A Mi Cumpleaños by El Cuarteto De Nos

Well this is honestly mostly Vibes. But the song has a certain melancholic vibe to it (bc tavella is singing it LMAO te amo Santi) which stands out because it's meant to be a happy song, isn't it? They cut ties with this person, who they felt betrayed them, and they're not better, happier. They don't need them, their birthday is sooo much better without them.

And in a way, this also fits Spamton himself, with him being the person not invited, because they're described as being fake, a liar, and there's even the line of "tu pelo pasa de oscuro a castaño" which fits Spammy since he likely dyed his hair too (only other way around lol).

6. Where We Belong by Shayfer James

We are stepping into the songs that make me go "I have no idea what I meant by this". If I had to reverse ingeneer my epiphany, however, I'd say... perhaps the lines about overthrowing the king and picking apart the promised land made me think of Snowgrave.

7. Catharsis by AlicebanD

I'm not even going to lie to y'all the angel of self shipping influenced me to put this here. But the beginning lyrics fit him like a tee. Fake smiles, hungry and cold, full of debt, broken internally and externally...

8. Cadillac Car by Playboy Manbaby

This one's one of my favorites of the playlist, and a rather simple one, not too much with the lyrics. But the protagonist sounds like A Mess, but attempt to remain almost formal? Wearing a nice white dress and doing their hair...

And they fucking hate their boss, which, I mean, it really seems to be Spamton's case since he loved being a big shot for having freedom and shit.

9. Ven Aquí by Los Bunkers

ANOTHER ONE I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT I MEANT BY IT. I literally tried to read the lyrics and twist it and try to find the answer but I can't? My best guess is honestly Swatchton. But it'd be Spamvil?

10. Afraid by The Neighborhood

Finalmente me puse las pilas, this song I feel confident about being here ! ! ^_^

Protagonist is facing identity issues, fearing being simply replaced, and is confident in that all their friends hate them.

There's even the line "sell your soul, not your body" which lol, lmao.

11. Hands Free by Rare Americans

There's the mention of a King and a Queen, and fittingly enough only the queen is in possession of something modern like a phone.

This is a song about the cruelty of the place the protagonist lives in, merely attempting to survive, having given up on the possibility of receiving help. Felt it fit here!

Also, the final line about a disease around town well heh ........ you know I'm gonna bring up snowgrave again BBY 😎

11. Bubblegum Bitch by Marina & The Diamonds

Oh brother this song is so Big Shot era Spamton coded. So hollow, so superficial, so ambitious. She outright calls herself a doll. You'd even make an argument for there being a side of Swatchton to this too. 😳

12. 1989 by Mindless Self Indulgence

I think I heard this song along Spammy in a video but I'll be damned if I can find it. Either way, it's kinda close to 1997 innit? And it speaks about wanting to be in control yet not being the time for him yet. "My body's not even cold, my act is just getting old" I feel are perfect for him too because of his fall from grace and futile attempts to be someone once again.

13. Darlin' Love by The Haunted Windchimes

I looove this song for Spamton as an even ironic romantization of his relationship with the stranger on the phone, painting his obsessive dependency on whoever that was as this toxic romance. Especially because of the bridge mentioning futile attempts at calling on the tellyphone, even in the end where the protagonist's lover leaves despite his pleads, ending with him trying to still call her.

14. Creep by Radiohead

This one is actually not a personal epiphany! This is here because of this drawing here that made me go "omg it's true that is so him" so I added it LMAO

15. You're Nobody Till Somebody Wants You Dead by Saint Motel

I truly feel this is how Spamton feels from his end, even if it's really not true. It's that air of betrayal and just giving up in a highly competitive and aggressive environment such is a business one.

15. Dirty Imbecile by The Happy Fits

This one I feel fits Spamton in his Big Shot era, but this one shows the harsher side to it because even with a big business and fame and all he had he was still a sad and lonely little powerless man. I specially love "I'm smart, I'm tough, I'm bourgeoisie? And I'll play out this lie until I die.", the lyric video potential of this song is thru the ROOF ☝️😤

Did I ever share this? Anyway from one to ten how badly should I be put on a mental hospital?

[spiderling-space]

Hey so this thought has been on my mind for like ages and I think that you'd be able to write a headcanon about it in a wonderful way, so I'm presenting this idea to you hehe ( I love ur blog so so so much btw!)

So let's say that whatever miracles of seven happened, that Yuu overblots. Being constantly pushed around by other students by being magicless, solving the idiot trio's problems, trying to survive overblots and dealing with Crowley's neglectful ass cheeks sure is not easy. With all the piled and bottled up negative emotions, Yuu like the previous boys, overblots. Yuu wasn't that hard to defeat cuz you know, they're magicless, but the twst boys did struggle and Yuu's quite the challenge too. So what if, after Yuu's overblot, they had a full on mental breakdown. Not like crying mental breakdown, they're full on SCREAMING, their voice are cracking too, and very painful to hear. They started to unconsciously harm themselves so they have to be tied down to prevent to hurt themselves further. How would the dormleaders react to that?

(Sorry for my English and if I ever break a rule, it's OK if you decide to not do this too. Btw I got this idea when I watch ATLA aka Aang the last airbender, for reference of the breakdown of Yuu just search "Azula's breakdown" that practically how their breakdown looked like :D)

I cant write headcanons because you basically wrote everything. I will just make comments and additions to this. first I mention the background, secondly Azula’s breakdown so non ATLA watchers can understand a little and lastly, MC having breakdown like Azula. For the record, I could write about ATLA for pages since it is something I love since 2005. LOL This became a bit meta xd

You can join the discord server here 😉🤣

Firstly, the back ground:

I was 7 years old when ATLA started airing. I’d be excited to get back home to watch ATLA after school. Azula’s breakdown was awful back then when I first watch it as a kid. And of course, when they aired the episodes again and again. I rewatched again because I remembered the show being dope when I was in 12th grade which was stress relief while studying for university exams, and then I rewatched last year and even founded a Zutara server. Now I’m getting back to the point. In the last two rewatching, I saw Azula in a different light and her breakdown at the end of the show was understandable. I can recommend some ATLA meta that you might like. 

Secondly, Azula’s breakdown: 

Azula lost everything. In the flashbacks, you saw she was getting along with Zuko, laughing and playing tag until Ozai’s influence on her grew while Ursa showed more affection towards Zuko since Ozai basically hated Zuko. These two triggered each other and it grew like snowball effect which came to the point that Ozai-Azula and Ursa-Zuko. She didn’t get love from Ozai, she was just a puppet, someone to empower him more, not his daughter meanwhile to Ursa, she was a monster. Azula was 8 years old  Ursa disappeared. Imagine how this would affect the child. After this, she had estranged brother that she was jealous of because of Ursa’s love, a father who manipulated her, and an uncle who was too in pain to do anything and he was more focused on Zuko. She only had Mai and Ty Lee as “friends” but it was toxic and Azula used fear to control them. After Zuko got banished, Mai and Ty Lee went to their own places, leaving Azula alone with Ozai. Just when Zuko got back, she was being like the last times, cruel teasing, Mai and Ty Lee with her. Later, Zuko went away and probably got lectured by Ozai for her lie. Mai and Ty Lee stood against her. In the end, she had no one. Ozai didn’t want her with him either because he only wants power. Being alone drew her to the edge. In the Royal Hair Washing, the girl sje fired had her face. Her self hatred was palpable. She started to reflect this via Ursa, the mother who thought her as monster and didn’t love her like she did Zuko. I believe she would have had breakdown if she actually killed Zuko. At the end, she couldn’t handle it anymore. Being all alone, not being loved, self hatred and finally failing at something which is something she knows Ozai would never tolerate like he did with Zuko. This 14-year-old wouldn’t be able to handle it anymore and had breakdown.

Now last section, MC having breakdown like Azula’s:

Let’s see the things MC went through:

Stripped away from home

Doesn’t have much memory of it

Is thrusted into a world so foreign to them, where everything is foreign to them. There is no familiar thing that can make them recall home or feel at home

Is forced to study things that they have no prior info where the others have prior info and they are expected to ace the tests. This puts on pressure on regular students, can’t imagine the pressure they would feel since they barely understand the magic.

Is treated like trash by everyone at least once. From the first moment they came to Twisted Wonderland, they were like dirtbag. Dire gave them a house where they could get Hepatitis A to C, tetanus, hypothermia and any other disease. They have lived in that state for months and the house barely got fixed by the end of exams. They got belittled or used by almost all characters at least once. Examples: Vil calling them nobody; Azul trying to take the only thing they have from them, the dorm; Riddle calling them uneducated because not having magical parents; Leona acting like they are a toy in E2; Jamil literally manipulating their choice; sometimes NPC characters talked; Cater making them do his work etc.

They are given more than a person should handle. They are not certificated psychologist, they aren’t superhuman, they don’t have super healing... They are just human but has to fight enemies than can easily kill them if it were not the magic users around them. They are given the task of dealing with the emotional breakdown of the other people.

All of these are building up more and more. Maybe they started to get along with people after the belittlement and being used but every new character does this. At one point, it will be too much and they will think “they are only nice to me because I did a favor to them. If not for that, they wouldn’t be nice to me” which would lead to self doubt. When one starts doubting themselves, everything else starts to go down. Also, new characters treating them that way adds salt to the wound.

MC isn’t a professional psychologist. They can’t handle other people’s issues without taking a toll at themselves. They don’t even catch a break between everything.

Dire is deliberately keeping them away from home as they all do the errands he say. To him, what MC wants doesn’t matter much. The game doesn’t show but if MC has family and friends or pets, you can’t tell me that they wouldn’t miss them once or see, hug them or know their state, alive-dead, healthy-sick etc. 

Lastly not being invincible. The end of Episode 5 shows this well. They couldn’t stand against Grim who isn’t as powerful as the other overblot characters. They are mortal who can get hurt easily.

Now all these build up meanwhile we don’t see an MC centered chapter, how they are etc. It’s all about the others. Maybe there were a few chapters asking if MC is okay after everything but it feels like it is in the second plan. 

Everything that I mentioned can lead to a breakdown like Azula’s. Everything is just too much to handle and they don’t talk with a professional about it. When they finally let out everything, it feels much better, screaming out their lungs, lashing out like all of them did. They are finally letting out all of their emotions, crying and screaming; yet still feels better than bottling everything up. They think maybe that’s how overblot characters felt.

All in all, everyone in NRC needs a counselor.

[sotorubio]

I have to laught at the fact that people (and the show) see Lou as this toxic person because she sMokeS wEed, dRinkS, and goes to rOofTopS, when evak first kind of date happened because Even asked Isak to smoke weed with him, 99% of the skam characters drink and wild party and basically every druck coupled had a rooftop clip.

yeah absolutely. ppl are so clearly holding lou to a completely different standard compared to so many other characters. n like u mentioned the show seems to be leaning into that kind of association too at least based on the friday clip. i hope that will be refuted in the next episodes bc it's already bad enough to see the audience treat her like that w/o druck actually trying to make it a canon thing :/ it's pretty clear which kind of ppl (skinny white ppl bonus points if they're mlm) get to do these things in a cool way n which ones do it in a evil toxic way

alcohol & weed & "crazy partying" have been present in skam since the beginning but somehow it's such an unhealthy issue now 🙄 also while i do think the drinking culture among teenagers can be very worrying & there r huge problems w it there's still nothing like.. inherently wrong w drinking/smoking it's a very common way for young ppl to have fun.

ofc it's not for everyone n ppl are allowed to feel uncomfortable w it which is why i love nora's (machwitz) storyline so much as well as the nooras/sanas across remakes who don't drink. they r great examples of looking at the culture around different substances & teenagers in a critical way n it's good to see bc drinking & smoking aren't Thee high school experience for a lot of ppl but those seasons have never actually implied that drinking n smoking alone make someone a shallow/toxic/unstable/unreliable/a bad influence etc.

bc that's just such a bad n unoriginal take i can hear that from old christian ladies i don't need #progressive druck to tell me that lol. we've seen the party side of like 80% of the "good" skamverse characters so it rly shouldn't be hard to understand that constantin's toxicity isn't directly related to getting drunk or high. n therefore just bc lou does those things it doesn't make her the same as constantin bc they have nothing else in common. but i do have to admit druck isn't helping when they always make these lou/consti/isi smoking & drinking sessions end in some sort of distress while the ~pure~ characters don't do those sick and twisted rituals of... drinking n smoking

i know i'm ranting but i'm just kind of pissed off abt the attitude toward skam characters' partying n have been since that clip in s6 where ava smoked a cigarette n a lot of the reactions were like omg noooo i would've never believed this anyone but our angel ava like.... u do realize that drugs don't taint a person n aren't a sign of moral inferiority. that's a very.. conservative take

[yourturntosimp]

safaranger headcanons? i love them sm...

A/N: yes hello i had this formatted so long ago i js couldnt get myself to log in and post it JHGFDFGHJ neways my head got too full and i needed smth to do so here it is!! these were rlly fun to write ngl TWs: none tbh theyre js vibin- mention of toxic traits (overstepping boundaries), safalin drugs the valentines chocolate but it’s for the sake of creativity ok, ig they're kinda yandere if you squint? idk i felt like their canon personalities speak for themselves in terms of yan JHGFDCFVGH, not much besides that

♡ "nerd" /r

♡ they call eachother saffy and ray bc it's CUTE OKAY-

♡ they go out at like 4 in the morning and get 7/11 slushies

♡ safalin gets her blue raspberry and just watches as ranger tries to fill up his cup with every flavor of slushie

♡ this is their usual date as in it happens like three times a week

♡ they go on nicer dates sometimes

♡ like eating awful cardboard pizza in a parking lot

♡ or sitting on the edge of a highway bridge together

♡ taking turns shoving or scaring eachother to see if they could actually get the other to fall off of said bridge and into oncoming traffic

♡ they're so romantic, i know--

♡ safalin is generally very mousey when she's not being murdery, obv, so they can't go on many loud dates, or dates where talking to other people is a must

♡ ranger is generally very loud, so they can't go to many quiet dates either

♡ like. study-date at a library? he's already been banned bc he won't shut up and insists on yelling while he's there

♡ okay, how about the movie theater? wouldn't that work for both?

♡ no.

♡ the answer is no.

♡ he will either watch the movie by himself or just google the ending and twists, just so that he can yell EVERYTHING out in the theater when the movie's about to start

♡ it's awful, and he relishes in the absolute anguish of the other movie-goers

♡ but it's also kinda cute how he grabs safalin's hand and absolutely books it to the exit to avoid the onslaught of popcorn and drinks being thrown at them

♡ and safalin is a sucker for soft shenanigans, so needless to say, this happens often

♡ "but zuzu," i hear you asking because i am omnipotent and i know all, "wouldnt they get banned after a couple times?"

♡ and to that i say,

♡ yes

♡ they are banned from every movie theater in the city, actually-

♡ this is no problem, however

♡ and it ties into another one of their dates

♡ roadtrip time!!

♡ they take turns driving, but they mostly take off-road, probably-illegal paths

♡ why? they both get awful roadrage

♡ and also ranger likes to gas the car to the fastest it can go

♡ they also take turns with songs from their playlists, though ranger sings very loudly to his

♡ when safalin's not driving, she's either asleep, talking to ranger about bizarre medical cases off the top of her head, or rambling about the human brain

♡ that was just me being excessively roundabout in saying that the poor girl has motion sickness </3

♡ ranger's medical knowledge only goes as far as "haha funny advil go brr brr brr", so uh

♡ damn, ig safalin's just gonna have to deal with it for the next 3 hours until it's time for a bathroom break

♡ ranger will stop the car for a quick break if it gets too bad, but saf would personally rather not risk being flung through the fucking windshield-

♡ remember how this all started by them getting banned from all the cinemas?

♡ yeah they rlly drove all the way out just to do that same shit at a different one in a whole other town

♡ ranger is a surprisingly good cook, and safalin is limited to cooking different types of noodles

♡ but ranger, as a good chef, uses his powers for evil

♡ hot sauce. hot sauce everywhere

♡ safalin has her knife collection, ranger has his hot sauce collection. they are hazards.

♡ one day he may just.

♡ get bored and fuck around, yk?

♡ "babe i made you a sandwich!"

♡ "...honey ily but why are there jellybeans in the middle of this ham & swiss sandwich?"

♡ valentines day is a mess.

♡ they divide off the sides of the kitchen and refuse to speak with eachother

♡ you'd think they're fighting but no, they're just making surprise chocolate

♡ safalin sticks with normal chocolate ♡ until she mixes different types of sedatives and medicinal ingredients in them.

♡ for the sake of creativity!

♡ and then she decides that she wants them to be flower-shaped

♡ and she can't go out to the store and buy molds, no, that would make it too easy for ranger to see when he's being terribly un-stealthy at peeking over the cardboard barricade separating the two of them

♡ homegirl starts just.

♡ using piping bags to make petals. no words for this tbh--

♡ her hands are limp the next day, she can't even turn on the lights

♡ ranger is...also creative with his

♡ there are lots of chocolates, but they're all....weirdly shaped

♡ and when safalin finds out that a good half of them have sour gummy worms and skittles inside, that's ample explanation

♡ the rest? hot sauce

♡ this may seem like an unfair tradeoff, but i raise to you an opposition:

♡ ranger eats a single one of safalin’s chocolates and fucking explodes in hives- ♡ he insists on continuing to eat them, but he passes out after the third one is down his throat-

♡ safalin's chocolates were sharp and also drugged

♡ the weird flavored chocolates and the drugged chocolates balance eachother out in terms of awfulness, so it's a fair match-

♡ and also it's the thought that counts, yadayada they're hopelessly in love, whateverrr

♡ they don't fight too often, but when they do it's usually over one thing

♡ boundaries, yayyyy

♡ ranger wants to do everything fast, loud, and spontaneous

♡ this means things like suddenly running up and tackling safalin, or a short trip to walmart turning into a drive to the next state

♡ safalin has alot of problems with stuff like this

♡ she doesn't like sudden impact, she doesn't really like sudden anything

♡ she wants at least a warning beforehand, but ranger being ranger says "lol ok" and proceeds to completely forget within the next 3 seconds

♡ this sets safalin into a place of "you're saying ok but you keep doing it, do my boundaries not even matter to you or what?"

♡ so this is in fact a problem

♡ safalin's end of fault arises with bad communication and clingyness

♡ if she wants a hug, she'll want it immediately, but she won't say anything about it for fear of being a bother

♡ and then she'll get sad about it, because "i want a hug so bad rn but what if im being annoying aaaaaaaaaaaaa"

♡ and then ranger will just have to sit there trying to figure out why his gf is sulking

♡ so if/when he figures it out, he gives her a hug, right?

♡ but then she wants to be like that all day

♡ and ranger can deal with like....an hour, two hours tops

♡ but,,,,,,all day???

♡ safalin doesn't care about things like eating and using the bathroom

♡ "can't you just wait? just like...5 more minutes, please?"

♡ and when he can't bc

♡ bro's hungry, or he has to pee, cmon dude-

♡ she gets all sulky again, and it repeats

♡ for basically all day, every day, 24/7 all year long-

♡ it’s at a point where safalin gets sad when ranger wants to go somewhere else that isn’t with her

♡ so this is also a problem

♡ they're working on it

♡ they're both struggling, but they're trying

♡ ranger yells as a warning while he's charging at safalin, and safalin recognizes the importance of an eating schedule and needing the bathroom. healthy habits, people-

♡ yk if you consider their personalities without the opposites attract ship trope, it could be tough to see how they work together

♡ and honestly, yeah, they don't even know how they started dating eachother, one day they just said uwu at the same time and then they were a couple ig--

♡ but they balance eachother out pretty well

♡ ranger is good at conveying how he's feeling through body language but less with actual language it comes out as just a string of profanities

♡ safalin's body language is also reserved so you can't rlly read her, but her actual language is pretty good at conveying things

♡ so the combination of the two means that safalin is usually the one to help ranger articulate his words, while ranger is the one to clarify the connotation safalin's trying to convey in her words

♡ their communication is (mostly) smooth, and they can read eachother pretty well

♡ AND they're a sadistic murdercouple who also happen to be a pair of the two absolute biggest nerds you could find

♡ so really, what's better than that?

♡ nothing.

♡ they are the peak.

♡ they have an entire cult dedicated to them.

♡ viva la safaranger

[horrorslashergirl]

I have a request, since they're open! Anything with the Collector x Reader x Chromeskull. I love that pair! Surprise me with what happens. Preferably angst.

The Collector x Reader x Chromeskull- Hazardous Toxicity

Authors Note: Getting some practice with angsty scenarios and these two see to fit the picture, because what’s not toxic about being in a relationship with a serial killer, neverthless with two of them.

Warning: Toxic Polyamorous Relationship

Words: 2.2k

You had a peculiar taste in men and that went with the fact that you didn't like routine or having a normal relationship with a normal guy with a normal job and a normal hobby. Normal wasn't an adjective or characteristic you were attracted to.

If you could describe what your preference in men was, you would start by saying that you always liked them older, maybe because you had enough of going on dates with guys your age that talked about the same topics; college, sports, nothing that would really spark a certain interest, but alas you were glad at the end of the date they preferred to remain just friends. Easier to get out and not make an awkward scene and probably explain why there was no chemistry.

The past relationships you had were to put it nicely, acceptable. The guys always let you take the lead; you ordered the food, you decided what movie to watch, what to do on a certain date. To be always in charge was tiring and you felt kind of empty. There was no excitement what so ever.

So, imagine the actual relationship you were having now. Never in your life would you predict that you would end up in a polyamorous relationship with two men that were much older than you. It was just a fantasy, one that turned out to be real.

To say that your partners were quite unique would be just an easy saying; they always stood out of the crowd, maybe one of the reasons you were so intrigued by them, but they were that type of standing out like 'He's so handsome and fuckable type'. Well, in your opinion, yes, but in your friends and people that knew you, they were downright intimidating. Possible another plus in your attractiveness book.

They had that certain vibe that if they wanted to crush someone's skull, they would do it, not that you minded because, in a certain twisted way, you felt protected because Lord helps the poor soul that would have the guts to hurt you.

At the beginning of the relationship, everyone said that you should be careful, be vigilant because you don't know them well; they were mysterious to say so, never putting all the cards down for you to see, making your stay on your toes and your mind always to wander to their personas. That was what made you be drawn to them, they excited your mind and the intimacy?

You never knew how much pleasure exists, nevertheless with two men like them. They always made you crave more, your legs turning to jelly and mind a mess, all morals flying out the window and letting your carnal instincts take over.

Everything was perfect because you felt cherished, they always treated you with all kinds of surprises, and sometimes it felt like they were competing for your affection and attention; the perks of having two alpha males.

They also had their differences, despite how similar Jesse and Asa were. Jesse was an extrovert, while Asa was an introvert. Despite Jesse being mute he always found himself teasing you, be it at first using the electronic reader and later on suggestive signing after you got better with ASL. Asa could speak very loud and clear but chose not to, only if he had something to say, which always was accompanied by an authoritative tone, more or less.

Both are very highly intellectual and that showed; Asa being a successful entomologist at the university and the many degrees and diplomas on the wall of his office spoke for him, not to mention how much he knew about history and art. Jesse was nothing less either, with running a successful chroming company, being a highly respected and feared CEO and it always amazed you how much he knew about information technology.

So basically your type was experienced, tall, intimidating, and smart.

After being for some time in the relationship, your known one always said that they were controlling you, which at first made you confused about this statement, wondering from where they deducted that.

Maybe you were a little blind, not able to see how they chose for you what to wear, what to eat, how you should do your hair. You saw them as a suggestion, but the ones outside begged to differ.

There also came a hard time when you were having trouble at your job, the economy was going down, your boss had to cut salaries and you couldn't afford to pay rent, not to mention that you needed to over-work; extra hours staying at work meant less time spending with your lovers.

They suggest that you should move in with them, switching from Asa's house to Jesse's depending on when they weren't working, plus they made you give up on your job, explaining how the money wasn't even covering how much you worked.

You agreed; maybe the lack of sleep, too much frustration, and injustice conducted you to agree with their proposition.

They took care of all your needs, be them material, spiritual or physical; they delivered it. You couldn't argue on that, but slowly, without you realizing it, they made you be dependent on them, seeking them whenever you felt like, but you were always the submissive, they owned the power and you only basked it what they emanated.

The apex of this relationship came when darker secrets came out because your curiosity got the better of you, not going to work that left you a lot of time to think and brown-noose into their stuff and business; the biggest mistake of your life, much worse than entering this hazardous relationship.

The first time your eyes looked over a photo-album of Asa's, you expected to see family photos, since he never brought this subject, you were interested in it, but seeing all the gruesome photos, you never thought a human could be shaped like this? This had to be some sick joke, right? But it wasn't.

You haven't told Asa about it or tried to question him, making sure you put the album exactly where it was. You debated if you should tell Jesse since Asa had to do some entomology related work for the weekend and you stayed by Jesse's house, but he had to go to work too, something about an unannounced meeting, leaving you to spend time all alone into his enormous house, so again curiosity got the best of you.

If you thought that Asa's photo album was gruesome, then the tapes you found in Jesse's Chrysler inside the glove box and trunk were sure going to give you nightmares.

You were pacing in Jesse's living room, drinking some whiskey to calm your nerves because you were sure that a breakdown was going to come, then it hit you. All the missing people, the murders on the news; you played detective and pin-pointed everything.

It all came down to you, the harsh reality; all the false sense of safeness and affection, it was pure-down manipulation, the undercover controlling that you were too blind to see because you were like a love-struck puppy to them.

The solution was simple; break up this relationship.

That's what you did, you wrote down a quick note, not explaining why you were leaving them, you just wanted to getaway. You left Jesse's place and walked for half an hour. Where? You didn't know, you had nowhere to go because all your friends left you; some that decided you were a lost cause, others too afraid of your men.

You had so much money just to stay at a cheap hostel for some days, but it was better than sleeping in a bus station on a dirty bench. Maybe you will go back to your parents? You didn't have a plan in mind.

The first night you couldn't sleep, not only because the bed was very much uncomfortable and the people in the room next to you were making too much noise, but because you felt like they were always watching; you were getting paranoid.

The next day, you managed to get some sleep in the morning, sleeping until it was the afternoon, the growl of your stomach waking you up. You walked to a cheap restaurant across the hostel, and as you took the first bite of the scrambled eggs and a little too burnt sausages, you grimaced.

Too accustomed to five-star meals and champagne, doll?

Alas, you swallowed down, reminding yourself that luxury wasn't an option in your current predicament. You sipped on the bitter coffee, the taste as truthful as the relationship which you ended, the dark liquid waking you up, and everything pouring down on you; it was only a game. The affection was only a camouflage for the twisted intentions, the protectiveness only possession.

After sitting there for hours and the waitress telling you that if you wouldn't order anything else you should leave, you walked back towards the hostel, walking upstairs to your room, entering and closing the door behind you, you were ready to hit the bed again, only to stop dead in your tracks when your gaze meets long black-clad legs, eyes moving up over the black clothes and wide chest and stopping on a bone-chilling chromed skull mask.

The bald head and tall frame of the mad was a dead giveaway to who he was, and when you heard heavy footsteps behind you, you knew who the second person was behind you, but your mind didn't want to acknowledge the scenario.

"Going somewhere?" the calm and familiar voice asked behind you, feeling Asa stop behind you, just a few inches away from his chest to press against your back.

'Piggy has been naughty.' Jesse signed, making your gut twist at the nickname he gave you.

"I-I...." you didn't know what to say, afraid of saying anything when your eyes saw Jesse twirl a large knife, clearly amused by your face that showed fear.

"You what? Trying to break things off without a specific motive?" Asa asked into your ear, gloved hands grasping your hips into a bruising grip, fingers digging into your skin behind your shirt.

Of course, they found out you were sneaking where your nose shouldn't be. Asa knew where everything he owned was, so it was no surprise when he found the photo album a little out of place, and Jesse? You cursed yourself for forgetting that he had security cameras all over his place.

Jesse moved off the couch and stalked towards you, looking down at your form and at this moment you really hated how tall and imposing of a figure he had. You were turned around and pressed to his chest, your eyes ready to meet Asa's face, only to be masked by a black-foam mask, making him look so very menacing, like a very dangerous spider.

You felt Jesse trail the tip of his knife up and down your thigh, his masked face pressing against the top of your head.

"You know what I am most curious about?" Asa asked, pulling out a knife of his own and trailing the blunt edge over your neck, the cold blade making your breath hitch.

"Any person in your situation would have called us in." he answered for you.

That's when it hit you, your eyes widening. Any person in their right mind would have gone directly to the police, telling them everything, you had enough proof to put them behind bars for the rest of their lives, but you hid out like a rabbit, ready for the wolves to find you.

"Aren't you such a loyal pet?" Asa murmured in your ear, the knife nicking your collarbone a little, feeling his hot breath and rough texture of his mask hit your skin.

'Someone has a little crush.' the electronic voice from Jesse's phone spoke, making you more aware of what was happening.

"P-Please....I won't tell anyone." you whispered, closing your eyes as you felt Jesse move his knife up and down on your inner thigh.

"I'm sure you won't. It would be a shame to kneecap you, queen bee." Asa said, sadistic promises behind the cruel words.

You whimpered at the nickname, one it used to make you smile brightly and nuzzle into his chest, feeling so loved and appreciated, but now it made you sick to the stomach.

'Very big shame to destroy such a cute face.' Jesse added, pulling his knife away only for his nitrile covered hand to come up and cup your cheek, running his thumb over your soft skin.

"Are you going to come home with us or do we have to train you through?" Asa asked, question rhetorical and by Gods, you didn't want to find out what it means 'training' in his mind.

Swallowing down, you nodded, doe-like eyes on his obsidian ones, his plush lips pulled into a winning lop-sided smile, then his lips pressed against your forehead, making you tremble a little.

Asa pulled away from you, walking towards the door, opening it. You were pushed forward by Jesse, who wrapped one long arm around your shoulder, making sure you wouldn't try to run away, not like you would get too far away.

As you passed the small reception you saw the owner of the hostel dead, into a pool of blood with his guts out.

This was a warning that this was not a childish game.

The meaning was simple; Try breaking things off with them and they will break your legs.

[bisluthq]

😞😞😞

TBH you're very convincing and I feel very sick and stressed out right now. My head hurts

But I feel like you're trying to trick me. And like you're lying to me. I don't want to become a Swiftgron or Haylor or Toe, I don't like any of those ships, I only like Kaylor.

I feel like you're only being nice to me because you want me to become a Gaylor

I don't know how emails work that much. How do I know somebody else didn't send them pretending to be her?

She would never ever do that, ever. I know she wouldn't because I've followed her since I was 13 years old, and she's always been nice to me and gives me the 🎯 in my asks a lot and the ☺️ face.

She's never been mean to me except for once but that was my fault for asking her a question that was stupid, but then I said sorry and she forgave me for it

I can't picture her ever doing that. I think maybe you're not lying on purpose. Maybe you just got confused with someone else, and you think it was TTB who did all of those things, but it was actually maybe Wh*ler (who I hate) or ind*stryhearts (who I hate too). They both made fun of some of my asks multiple times, and they're rude.

Maybe Wh*ler and ind*stryhearts are trying to take TTB's place, and so they're framing her

I don't know... I know TTB's a good person. I always saw her as like another mom or like a teacher that I like. Because she cares about us, I think

She doesn’t care about you hun. I don’t want you to be a Gaylor. I don’t need you to follow me. I’m literally just showing you reality. And I know it hurts. And I know it sucks. And I know it feels like a betrayal.

But it’s literally not about a ship.

This woman is a bully. You need to understand that. She is legitimately terrible. She’s antisemitic (she has bullied a 16 year old before and that girl was just like you - she fucking LOVED her and couldn’t believe that TTB wouldn’t hear her or listen to her when she asked her to stop). You remind me a lot of TTB4 tbh. Like that girl COULD NOT UNDERSTAND how her favorite blogger could turn around and threaten to doxx her. It genuinely didn’t compute for her. And it hurt her SO MUCH when people she had been friends with, people she’d vibed with, turned around and took this antisemitic bitch’s side.

TTB is ableist (she has bullied people for mental health issues before). TTB is homophobic (bottom is not an insult and posting grossed out gifs after discussing supposedly gay men isn’t okay). TTB is racist (she made BLM about Kaylor, and she fetishized mixed race babies, and she spoke about Christian Owens in the Lover MV in problematic ways).

Also your fave should never be mean to you for asking a stupid question especially if you follow for a long time. Like... it’s not hard to be kind. You shouldn’t have to apologize to blogs when they dislike a question. You shouldn’t be made to feel that way. You, yourself, have identified a way she’s... not nice. How do you know you won’t piss her off one day - you’ve said you’ve needed to apologize to her once before - and she’ll turn around and out you? Email your parents - she has done that - or your school - she did that too?

You deserve better. Your ship deserves better. She is a fucking MENACE and you are more than capable of clowning and creating content and enjoying the fuck out of Kaylor without her because she adds NO VALUE she is just a net negative toxic presence. She legit outed someone and cost her her friendship. And if she’d sent the email to that girl’s dad, she would’ve possibly endangered her life. She has bullied mentally ill people. She has yelled at Black folk when they were cross with Tay about her inaction during BLM and she twisted it to be about Kaylor (that’s not right, BLM is very important and has NOTHING to do with Tay’s love life).

She is FAR WORSE than either of the blogs you mention. She is so rude at best and bigoted and dangerous. My dude she outed someone and endangered her life.

You don’t need to bat this hard for her hun.

You deserve better.

And no I’m not saying that because I want you to follow me or join my ship haha I don’t even have a ship. I just know you deserve better babe.

[yandere-society]

(ex)fuckboy maknae line hcs trying to convince the reader they're willing to settle down for her but the reader keeps refusing, not believing them.

admin / author: @an-ambivalent

Warning: This post contains yandere themes, abusive relationships, and the characters display other behaviours that can be triggering or uncomfortable to read. This is not for the light-hearted so read at your own risk. I do not believe any of the mentioned members would display any sort of this behaviour in real life and I do not condone this behaviour either. This work is purely fictional. 

A/N: hello, I sort of used your prompt as a loose guideline. I tried to stick to what you asked for but some scenarios differ slightly from specific details of the request just because I think its good to have this scenario lead to various endings through different choices. Nonetheless, I hope you like it! 

Jimin

It began with pleas. 

��[Name] please, just listen to me,” Jimin begged, and he forcefully cornered you to the quieter side of the bar. He calculatedly situated you in between his body, and the wall to make sure you would not be able to get away. 

He hovered over you threateningly, and it was a position you had long forgotten. However, just like unclean wounds that heal on the surface but deteriorate once they get exposed to the right stimulus once more, Jimin had returned in your life as the infection that would worsen the damage. The scars he left behind had not healed and now, would never heal because he was ready to inject the sick in you once again. 

His touch lacked warmth and felt utterly icy – it was like sleeping with someone with hypothermia – he was going to steal your warmth for himself and then leave you shivering with his own coldness. 

The long forgotten memory of his hurt had remained ingrained in your muscle memory. This was because you instinctively flinched as he grabbed your face with both of his hands firmly, and made you look up into his eyes. 

Pathetic and utter desperation clinging onto the last remains of his sanity was strangely lustrous in his eyes. 

“Baby, you haven’t been replying to my messages… That’s… You know I don’t like that,” He started, and as he spoke, his voice gradually lowered and his eyes narrowed into a glare. Momentarily, he ended up applying a bit more pressure on your face, and you visibly winced. Immediately,  Jimin eased the amount of force he was applying on your face that could have potentially injured you. 

“I, I’m a better person now so I’ll look over that this once. But I-I’m here because I’m ready to settle down with you now. I’m a changed man now I-I swear! I won’t exploit your trust ever again and I’m ready to commit myself. So, you’ll give me another chance won’t you [Name]?” He stammered, and although he was not gripping your face like a tyrant anymore, there was a dangerous glint of the devil etched in his eyes. 

You shook your head. 

“Doesn’t matter what promises you make now Jimin, it doesn’t change the toxicity and hurt you left me with. I– I can’t trust you, not after you cheated on me–” 

“I only did that because I loved you too much! Because I was scared that you were so good for me 

and that I was going to lose you!” He proclaimed, and in response, you scoffed. Fear forgotten, and with a new burning fire in your heart, you shoved Jimin off you. 

“Go take that bullshit to someone else who’s stupid enough to believe you!” You snapped, and turned to walk away. However, Jimin grabbed you by the arm, and roughly pulled you back to him. With his warm breath fanning your ear – it was the warmth that he had started to seep off you without your realisation until this very moment when the cold shivers prickled your skin – his whispered threats killed the newfound determination you thought you had discovered within. 

“I warned you I would only overlook you ignoring me that once. Do it again, or disobey me again, and I’ll upload your private little recorded videos from when we used to be together online.”

(Taehyung and Jungkook under the cut!)

Taehyung

The air in the atmosphere was tense, and the fact that Taehyung’ was close to reaching his breaking point, was evident in the way his irises were empty of emotions. 

What was supposed to be a night of fun, something that would help you destress from all of the other ongoing stress in your life, had turned out to be the opposite; the situation was dire, and its’ twisted plot had just manifested the distress you wanted to get rid off in the first place. 

“You thought I was just a fling?” He asked, and the way he spoke it was posed like a usual question, but you knew better. Beneath his seemingly calm state, there was a volcanic fury on the edge of bursting. The lack of emotion in his voice – a rare phenomena for Taehyung, made you gulp in nervousness. And this nervousness only manifested when you abruptly became aware of the fact that you were having this conversation while you were bare. 

Feeling conscious about the physical aspect of your nakedness was never a problem with Taehyung. With his guaranteed experience that came hand-in-hand with his reputation of being a playboy, it never left any room for dissatisfaction. But much more than that, unlike with anyone else you had ever been with, he always took his time to appreciate – almost worship each aspect of your body. The concept of insecurity was nothing but a fleeting dream in the moments you were involved intimately with him. However, that was not the case right now. So, you could not help but pull the sheets around you closer to yourself, hoping they would provide you with some sort of comforting security. 

“I– You can’t blame me for that can you? With your reputation, how am I supposed to think of this as anything else other than a fling?!” You responded, and the unintentional accusatory tone in your voice, caused Taehyung’s fingers to twitch in anticipation. 

He really hoped you wouldn’t test his self-control again because he could only hold himself back for so long. 

“I told you I loved you, and you said it back.” 

“I– I thought it was an on the spur of the moment kind of thing,” You admitted sheepishly, and then all Taehyung started to see in that moment was red. 

However, before he did something that would have worsened the situation for you or even himself, it was fortunate presently that you were willingly and had decided to speak just in the nick of time. 

“I’m not opposed to becoming serious but I– honestly, I still have my doubts so if you’re willing to prove your loyalty and give me the time I need then we can try,” You offered honestly. Although, your suggestion was not his optimum response, it was better than what you said to Jimin in another alternative universe. 

So, knowing that the situation could be better, but also could be worse, Taehyung decided this was okay… For now. In due time, once he proved himself to you, you were going to give him all of you, and nothing less. 

He gave a smile that was strained ever so slightly. 

“Sure, I’ll wait for you and do whatever it takes to gain your trust. I hope you willingly put the same effort that I do too.”

Jungkook

“You don’t really think you can leave without my permission, do you? Tell me you aren’t that stupid [Name],” Jungkook said, sighing. Then, he rubbed his temples as if to say that dealing with your shenanigans again was a headaching chore to deal with. 

You bit your lip and shifted your gaze to the ground. The small packed bag you held in your hands that consisted of your necessities, was close to slipping out of your grip because your arms were trembling. Whether this was due to sorrow, fear, or both – you did not know. 

“I, I don’t want to be with you anymore Jungkook. I can’t be with you! No matter how much I try to move on from what happened, I just, I can’t deal with it, it’s not healthy for me. You’re not healthy for me. P-Please just let me leave,” You pleaded, and the amount of unease you felt while pleading this, made you feel queasy. 

Jungkook raised an eyebrow and scrutinized you with a  judgemental stare, before he scoffed at you. 

“How many times have we done this now? This is the third time you’ve brought it up. I told you I’m sorry for sleeping with others behind your back, and I promise I won’t do it again. What else do you want me to do?! I can’t go back in time and change the past. Get over it already,” He snapped, and you winced at the harsh loudness of his voice. 

“Why are you so awful–” You started, but Jungkook cut you off. 

“Why are you always nagging me about this? Did you ever stop to think that I slept with others out of my respect for your wishes?! You were the one who wanted to wait for your first time, so I respected your wishes and gave you the time until you were ready and fulfilled my own needs with someone else. And it meant nothing! Each time I slept with someone else it was always you I imagined, and after you became ready to sleep with me, I became ready to settle down with  you,” Jungkook stated, and to him, what he said made perfect sense. He could not understand why you kept on bringing this up and not understand it by now. 

And he was right in the way that you truly did not understand the logic behind his absurd reasoning. If anything, his logic left you feeling completely flabbergasted. The fact that he did not see anything wrong with his actions, and simply apologised for the sake of apologising and did not mean a word of it, repulsed you so much that you lost your touch with reality and were unable to grasp it. 

Seeing the frozen look on your face prompted a sigh out of Jungkook, as he walked towards you. He grabbed your bag out of your hands with one hand, and one of your now free hands with his other. 

He guided you back into your shared abode, reminding himself to arrange something that would prevent your attempts of escape permanently. 

“It’s late at night, let’s sleep on this and talk about it tomorrow,” He said. 

Jungkook decided he either had to lock you up so you could not  get access to your belongings or any money to escape in the first place. Or he would need to induce memory loss to make you forget about the whole sleeping thing so you would stop bringing it up and live together with him in peace. 

—-

I sort of associated fuck boy thing = cheating in this ;;

I sort of wrote and edited this (both) while being half-asleep so that may have contributed to some of the poorer writing ;_; I hope you enjoyed reading it nonetheless! 

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Bea & Ro

Surprisingly productive argument/turned actual conversation, about Drew, Ro’s self-loathing, sister issues and their parents/going to London soul-searching.

Bea: Back with him then? I thought you'd learned your lesson (finally) last time...Well? Ro joined the chat 3 hours ago Ro: Yes, it was rather unexpected, and sudden I suppose, hence I didn't get a chance to let you know individually Ro: Well, actually I have learned a lot. As has Drew. Bea: That's always good, rushing into commitments, being at his beck and call... Bea: And obviously he has, how else would he deceive you, again. Got to have new tricks. For goodness sake! Bea: What does he actually do with his time, Ro? What do you think? He isn't in Schooling, fine, but where's his REAL job? Bea: What are you getting out of this? Except heart-ache and being made to look a fool at the end of it, every month or so Bea: I thought you were in a good place? Ro: That isn't at all what I meant. There was a lot going on with my birthday celebrations and everything as you yourself know. Ro: Oh Bea that's just uncalled for! He's changed and with is finally being more truthful with me. Ro: I thought you, out of everyone, would understand standing on your own two feet and making a living for yourself your own way. He didn't enjoy school but he's using the skills he has to support himself Ro: What is so wrong with that? Ro: I am in a good place now. With him. He loves me. What more could there be to get 'out of it' Bea: Wait, he didn't try all this AFTER you read the letter, did he? Bea: It's always an emotional time for you, regardless if it was before or after anyway; it's wrong for him to exploit that for his own gain Bea: No, he hasn't! If he had, he'd leave you alone, or at least let you come back to him. He hasn't changed at all. Bea: So tell me what he does, if it's so admirable, tell me right now what you think he does, what has him out all the odd hours Bea: I, out of everyone, know where dealing in the things he does, can get you. You don't remember what it was like for Tess and Fearghal back then, you were too young, but they've told enough war stories for you to know better! I know you do, so why are you choosing to ignore what you know to be true for his sake? Bea: He isn't worth it. For God's sake, being associated with him could risk your career before its even began. Is that what you want? Think on! Bea: Oh, Ro. There is so much more than those words, even when they're not empty. Ro: Why must you take something so nice and twist it into something HORRIBLE! I hadn't even opened your gift when Drew and I reconciled. Mum and dad have nothing to do with this and he would never do anything to involve them after everything he has been through with his own family. Ro: You don't know anything about him. Or us. You barely know me. Ro: He does all kinds of things, odd jobs, fetching and carrying for people that sort of thing. I didn't need all the ins and outs because I trust him and honestly it hardly matters if you don't. Ro: I've also been told enough stories to understand that people deserve second chances, as have you. He isn't as lucky as I was. He remembers every struggle before Caleb's family took him in and he does what he has to do to make sure he and Meena will have a future whatever happens next. I can't blame him for that and you shouldn't. Self reliance is the opposite of a risk and I'm proud and lucky to know him, thank you very much. Ro: You clearly have no idea what he's worth so you'll excuse me if I don't bow to your 'wisdom' on the subject. Ro: Besides, it's my career. Not yours. You've made your own choices why can't you let me make mine? Ro: How can you say that Bea! You live by them. Fraze is everything to you and you've never listened to a word against him, have you? Bea: You're just seeing it as it actually was, and not through rose-tinted fairyland glasses. Bea: I know enough. More than you, as you continue to choose ignorance over swallowing the bitter pill and moving the fuck on. Bea: And there is no 'us' as in 'you and him'. There never will be because that is not what he wants from you. Bea: You are ridiculous. This is not 1950s America in a cheesy movie...He isn't a fucking boy scout doing bob-a-job. Listen to how stupid you sound, for what? He doesn't defend you, or do anything that inconveniences him, in fact, for you. Its one-sided and unfair and you deserve better, I know you think otherwise, and that you won't get better but its true, and possible. Bea: Boo fucking hoo. He doesn't get to use his sad backstory to be a criminal. All that will happen is that he'll end up in jail, leaving his wittle sister alone. And Meena will be just fine without him, because she's got a fucking brain in her head. God, I wish I could say the same for you. Bea: I don't care to know any more about him that is plainly evident for all to see. You're not going to get a doctorate for giving a shit about him. He isn't special. He's not intriguing. He's a waste of your time and energies. Bea: Don't even bother going to Cambridge if you're going to throw it all away on him. Save the country the debt, get yourself knocked up now and waste away waiting for him to love you back. Bea: Because we have common interests, goals, and you know, we make each other's lives better by being in them? And we've always both been willing to put our money where our mouth is, in terms of love and working together to get what we want and need. So please, don't ever try and compare this teenage infatuation of yours to my relationship with Fraze again, it is just laughable in the saddest way. Ro: Stop. You don't know half as much as you think you do and frankly what information you're working with isn't correct anymore if it ever has been. You're the one being ridiculous, not me. Ro: Not to mention judgmental! You don't get to tell him how to act or what his future may or may not be because you aren't a monopoly on tragedy. Ro: I wish you'd stop pretending to have any stake in my own future either. It isn't so and I'm not going to do as you say just because you say it. Not that it's any of your business but getting pregnant is the last thing I intend to do but if I did it has nothing to do with you and there is no reason I'd have to choose regardless. You didn't and Ali isn't. Ro: I've already told you he does love me and he does make my life better but since you clearly need to hear it, we also have plenty of things in common. Bea: No, I won't. Because someone needs to tell you, and it will go in. And one day, you will see sense. Bea: Yeah my judgment is the least of his worries, try the judgment of the fucking law because did you forget, its illegal? Bea: He's a moron, everyone in Dublin knows he's dealing, he'll be lucky if the police find him before rivals do and break his fucking kneecaps. Bea: I do, I'm your sister, you don't have to like it for it to be reality, you can't write me out of your fucking fairytale, Ro. And if you want anything to do with your niece or nephew, I'd reconsider the path you're going down because fat chance I'm letting them near that scum, or near you when you're behaving so irrationally. Bea: All you have in common is co-dependency on toxicity and fucking up your lives and your poor attempt at trauma-bonding. What fun! Ro: We're sisters when it suits you, Bea. I'd be surprised you have time for this conversation except I'm well versed in the fact that you live to berate me. I thought things were getting better between us but apparently I'm wrong about that above all. Since we've come to what is really, and consistently, the heart of the issue once again, I won't try and change your mind or apologise, once more, for not being good enough for you. I'd hate to sound even more like an irrational teenager when you read back this conversation to bask in your superiority. Ro: What's fun are these constant fights and reminders of what a failure you believe I am. Ro: If you don't want me around Nancy and Buster then fine, they are your children. I don't feel the need to tell you what to do or you're doing wrong. Bea: So you want me to leave you alone? But are also so sad about the fact I'm never there for you? Sounds like someone's confused! Unsurprising when you believe lies and won't see or hear anything real. Bea: And I haven't berated you, I've berated him; you are not one. Which is the real heart of the issue, you taking responsibility for and internalising all his bullshit. Bea: And I have bad news for you on that front, except you sound like what you are, a child. Bea: I've never been ashamed of you. Until now. Bea: You won't be in and out of their life when it suits you, just an Auntie when he leaves you, AGAIN. So, you've made your choice. I sincerely hope you can live with it. Goodbye, and good luck, Ro. Ro: I must take after you what with you contradicting yourself so heavily. If Drew and I aren't one, as you're so keen to stress then why are you so quick to try and tell me that I'm not separate from his choices or mistakes. Ro: Sadly you're too late as well because I'm not a child anymore. However my relationship continues or ends I'm living my own life. I didn't expect to have to do so without you but I fine. Ro: As for the kids, I wouldn't do that when I know how much it hurts. Ro: For the record though, this is the choice you made. It's been forced upon me but I guess I will have to live with it all the same. Bea: No, Ro. You chose to make the wrong decision. Bea: You love getting a chance to be the victim. Well, be his victim. But you're not mine, you did this to yourself, I gave you the choice. Ro: There shouldn't have even been a decision to be made but you need me to be wrong so badly don't you? In every way you can. Forgive me for being sick of it. Ro: No Bea, you love me to be a victim so you can heap your scorn on me. It's not the same thing. Just like a choice isn't the same as a ultimatum which is what you've thrown at me. Bea: No, I need you to fucking love yourself! Maybe you're sick of feeling wrong, feeling like you're never enough. That is coming from you and you alone, so don't you dare try to push your self-loathing onto me and say that's how I feel about you, because it isn't, never has been, and it never will be. I love you. Bea: I pity you, it hurts you like scorn because you've still got an ounce of pride left in you somewhere. I'm just asking you, begging you, to hold onto it and make use of it. Ro: Then just love me! Let me be happy without trying to ruin it and be cruel all the time. That hurts me and it does, and is, coming from you. I can't keep having the same fight with you. It's more exhausting than anything Drew's done. Pity me for saying so if you want. I can't control that either. Bea: If I have to be cruel to be kind, then that's the role I have to play. I hardly enjoy it, it hurts me too, Ro! But I'm not going to lie to you, to pretend something is okay when it isn't, just because that's what feels best to you at the time. Because its not going to feel good when you look back, for me or for you. I'm not prepared to wrap you in cotton wool. You're an adult now? Then I'm treating you like it, no coddling. Ro: But you don't have to! You don't have to like him but why can't you accept that I do? I love him. Why can't that just be okay? Nobody else is lying or pretending, I mean look at Tess, but she's not being like this. Like you. Ro: You're my sister but you don't have to be anything to him, I'm not asking for that. We aren't married, Bea. Bea: Because I AM your sister! They're all family, but they're not; there are boundaries. And Tess is a parental figure, parents let you make your own mistakes. But I am your sister and I happen to think you've made the same mistake enough times now. There's nothing more to learn from this, from him. Nothing of worth for you and your personal growth. Bea: But I know you're not going to stop, so, there we go. I couldn't live with myself if I didn't try, it will help one day. Ro: But maybe it isn't a mistake this time. Or maybe I am just tired of always having to think in terms of what I can learn or take and want to just have what he can give me... Ro: why can't this be worth a try? Bea: Because you're worth more than just taking what you can get from someone who isn't giving enough, nevermind their all. Ro: You're just saying that because you don't like him. Bea: No, Ro, I am not. And you know that. Ro: I know I'm not you. Or Ali. And I know what people say about me. Why they bully me. I'm not stupid. Bea: You're socially awkward, that's all. People with competent enough social skills themselves can easily get past that. And you're clever, all that just combines to make people feel insecure so they project that onto you, make you feel the same. Bea: Its not as if I had any real friends at School either. There's a whole world out there, Ro. Filled with people who will like and love you, will get you. Bea: And you have Ali, and Meena, don't you? Ro: No you're clever, I just work hard. Try harder. Ro: You don't get it, he's not the one who's wrong, I am. Ro: He loves me, why can't I have that? Ro: And yes, of course, but it's not the same Bea: But what's not admirable about that? Being 'clever' innately (which in School just means having a decent store and recall memory to pass tests) isn't anything to shout about particularly, but putting in the work is. Bea: What's wrong with you? Different is not wrong. They're all the same, it makes it feel wrong to be different, but do you want to be like all the other girls in your School, really? Bea: You're better. Bea: Don't make me say it, Ro... Ro: In theory yes but in practice it's simply exhausting and frustrating and anything other than admirable. Or likable. Ro: I just don't want to be this. It isn't about comparison Ro: He makes me happy that's all. Bea: It feels like it when you're there, but School isn't a popularity contest. Its to get you to where the fuck you actually WANT to be, that's all. You don't want the only place you ever wanna be to be the School playground 'cos you've peaked, 'cos you're leaving in a year's time and there is no going back. Bea: You're going to have a life that is more than just nostalgia Bea: That's all this is, that's all I'm trying to prevent here, don't fall into the trap, okay? Ro: I know that. Ro: But this isn't just nostalgia though, I know that as well. Bea: Okay, but one day it will be, and I want you to be able to look back at this time with more than just regret Ro: And I want a chance to be in the moment, for once, instead of constantly looking back or worrying about the future Bea: Then go for it, like I said. But 'living in the moment' doesn't magically absolve you of making choices that will affect your present, your future, and how you look back on it as the past one day. You can not think too much about it when you're in it, sure. But you will have to live it and re-live it. That's just life, baby sister. I know it better than most. Ro: Okay, so what you have me do, leave him because of how he might behave and how he has in the past, in spite of his apologies for it? That isn't right. Bea: The past has a habit of not staying in the past...It creeps up on you, and on him, no doubt, old habits dying hard. If you can live with how he treated you, how everyone knows he treated you, the cheating and lying and just cruelty, he threw your way- then, well, I can't stop you. I wasn't trying to, I was only ever telling you how it is, how I see things. Bea: Is sorry enough? Because you know, it can't fix everything, don't you? Ro: I have to believe it can Bea: Then...I wish you luck. Ro: Is that all? You don't hate me again, do you? Bea: I never hated you, Ro, and I don't Ro: I hope so. I'd like to come and see you. I've been thinking about the woman that wrote you the letter a lot and was wondering if I should send her one back or something. Bea: You could- Or we could go visit her, she did offer Bea: I have been pondering what to do too Ro: Oh, that's an even better idea, if a scarier one.... Bea: Yeah Bea: We'll be okay. I'm certain she's legitimate, as in she was a true friend, not just someone who went to the same School and had a vague recollection and some old photos. I did a lot of digging before I reached out and she'd done Facebook posts on mum's Birthday, and the anniversary of the crash, year upon year, and she had more photos on their too. Bea: She could probably give us a real sense of who they were, and the area, she's still there...Its not somewhere in London I'd been previously and I haven't gone without you Ro: I don't doubt that or you, it's just...what if I'm not how she expects. Ro: The whole thing could be a huge disappointment Bea: It's not an audition. We're their daughters and that isn't up for debate, nor judgment. Who would she be to do that? Not that she sounds like that but you know, fuck anyone who would, they don't know us, what we've been through. Bea: It could be, yeah, but we've not got anything to lose, have we? Ro: You're right. Okay let's do it. When? Bea: Well, its a pretty good season to do it in, I think. Goodwill, being with new friends, reminiscing on old, reaching out to your fellow man and all that. We can get her something, to say thank you... Your last day is the 21st, right? So, if we do Sat 22nd, you can come back to Cambs with me for the Sunday and we'll all go back to Dublin together on the Monday, for Christmas Eve. Bea: Is that too soon for you? Its a few weeks but if you need longer, we can do it AFTER Christmas. I just think the festive season is as good an excuse as any, it'll make us all for more comfortable, I feel. Ro: No no I agree. That's a perfect time. Bea: I'll talk to Tess but I know she'll be fine. Bea: I'm really looking forward to this Ro: Anything to distract her from it being Caleb's family's turn to have Ali and the kids for Christmas, bless her. Ro: Me too. Thanks again, Bea. I know I've said it a hundred times already but Bea: Oh dear, I better catch up with her so she can rant, save your ears from it for the hundredth time, especially Ferghal's! Bea: Its okay, hopefully we'll get even more from this visit, fill in the blanks once and for all Ro: I really hope so, yes. Bea: I better get on, lots to do. We'll talk soon. x Ro: Okay. Kiss the twins for me 💕 Bea: Will do 💞